No more games... who are u? I gave you a year of my life and you gave me song, romance, love, like, and warm feelings..........but I am a practical person in many ways............I can be creative but I like my feet on the ground because there is so much instability in a world gone mad; so its the only way I can operate and feel human and sane...........because the insanity is out there, not in here with me............I am paradise lost within my walls...........waiting for only one prince to make them fall.............otherwise, I am a fortress and no one is getting in unless they have the magical key to my heart............no fakes, phonies, and players allowed to get to these jewels, who will not be trampled upon by pigs...............only a real man knows the true secret to my heart heart ...... I have waited and waited for the real you, who ever you are..........I have never done such a romantically and crazy thing before, for anyone.....so whoever you are I grow extremely weary of putting my life on hold waiting for you. I must have felt it was worth it or I would have quit a long time ago, but now, I feel your not being real with me, sincere, or if you are then why the fear?
Either move on or let me.......either way I am about done here today!! I am going to have to learn to unlove you and that is not an easy thing for me..........my love is strong for you, but you continue to use others to play head trips with me when all's I want is the real you........I have told myself your older, younger, white, black, brown, Asian, AI, or from far away, but anyway, hey.............the time has come no more bull...........I am pretty much done!! here waiting for you......I have mean people who have said horrible things to me, your fat, old, grey, with no color in between............too much hacking it seems......laugh as you will, you will never find the one with the thrill..............I know my worth, not waiting on a man, who has played and rehearsed to many grand slams, without a simple wam bam thank you mama!!
I guess you think me a fool to have hung on waiting for you, but you do not exist for me, not on here on the Internet, not on any social media, not by my place, not feeling anything today but disgrace and I have lost face! I am usually no one's fool, but it seems you have done this too!! I am not a weak person I am strong, if I can love you for this long then know I can leave you too, so is it so long? or how much longer do you think a strong person can hang on? My feelings were real, but you want Barbie, Twiggy, or someone lean, with bone and skin, I might not be a 6 but I have the right fit..........experience tells me this.........if a man truly loves he does not tell you to flatten your stomach, firm up your ass, I want you to look like a model, like all of the rest who starve, purge, and take dangerous drugs, just so some man finds their ass looking just in the right place. I might not be perfect, but I am not what you think.....getting so damn tired of your judgments on me boy, I am ready to walk!!!!
Only a fool hangs on this long, but I am about to leave and I won't be coming back.....I do not care about fortune or fame, I will erase you, like this love has been in vain........right now, its causing me pain.......tired of crying, hurting at night, when all the while I just wanted you to hold me tight! I am a fool and it seems you made me one too, but that's okay because you will never find anyone ever this true! Everyone you love will turn on you, and then you will be the one crying, like the fool, too!! It's always funny when we laugh at others mistakes, but remember, you're time is coming if you have been fake!! God is not to be mocked, and I have seen a lot of that coming from all directions too, just like me, your favorite fool!!
Make your self known..........or I will fix this problem...........cause if your the government then you violated my human rights, civil rights, and the US constitution, I guess that's why you used those from far off lands, with money to fruition this plan.....I am damn tired of fake people on my phone, your hackers on my computer screen too, if you do not like the truth, then you should come forth like a man and not someone with something to hide behind this screen! I am becoming green, not with envy but disillusion to your major intrusion on my life. I don't feel like playing this game, there's only one way it will work for me; and self preservation will be my theme, and I will write a book for those who want to know the real me!! I do not feel the love of a man, but rather a predictor with an insidious plan!
Did you think you could feel sorry for me, and make me a someone, just for lil Ol' me? I do not like your methods because they are not working as planned, you should have stuck around long enough to know I will not put up with this off of any.....just man......so go take your show and your media too, I am not impressed by your fame, money, or right now, you!!! I am tired of being your guinea pig......not a lab rat either, get this through your head!! I am about to go rogue on you!! I am easy going when not harassed, made the brunt of jokes, or not feeling your class!! You call yourself polite society, well guess what, it does not mean a Fk....ing thing to me!! You should have picked a greedy girl with a fine ass, because as far as I know, I have more class!! This is all for now, but I mean what I say.....you got the cops in your pocket, you pay people off, so if your not the government then you must have told them a heap of bull, apparently they do not know you, fear you, or your someone to be known......I am just done here............going to be looking else where it seems to see if I can find a guy.......who means everything to me!!!!!
Leave or I go to the Feds and if that's what you are then I will find a way to make sure you stay away!!! I am done with this charade of bullshit, deceit, and your not a man that can love me the way I want......game over.....find another sucker to play with.........I am not your woman and your not my man I hope you get this because I will deal with you with another plan!!!!! Get it.........scram!!
~~~D hating these fake do-gooders, who love porno and want to take pics......cover your boobs, and your crouch, unless your just a Ho then I don't care, but you will when you grow older.........you'll see men just use women like trash it seems, no love like this worth hanging on to........I want my freedom and I want it soon!!!~~~ if you were real, you would have come sooner.............Now!!! it may be too late we will see if you step up to the plate; otherwise, I grow tired of this bull, and I think I am about done with you!!!!!!