In love with two souls, one is the most beautiful-est person I have ever met in my life, so creative, original, unstoppable, knowledgeable, intelligent to the extreme, loving, kind, gentle, beautiful from the inside to the out, unbelievable kindness, love of all types of beauty, innocence of heart, love of animals, children, and all beings on this planet and the other galaxies.............multi languages, invincible, incredible, so unique that the word itself is dimension in its true meaning! I need a thesaurus to describe him, but my main point is he is undeniably unbelievable in almost every human expectations and then some~~~My true twin.........do u believe in destiny..........do u believe in that one and only one special love that kicks all others in the Ass!!!!? I do and he is in my life, for its not being with me that's most fascinating, its the fact I am me when I am with him as if his vessel is only there to contain the other half of my soul~~~my twin self the part of me that fled from birth......... I love this half so much.......but I am torn, too!
As there is always night, so there is day; as there is God then there is always evil in one form or another.......devil, Satan, the dark one whatever..........point there are always two opposing forces here on earth and as simple humans we have to deal with forces beyond our control.......and sometimes to witness yourself doing evil too! O yes, evil is so much fun, I would be a liar if I said I did not thoroughly love it!! I love being evil whether it is a sexual type of preference, drugs, lying, cheating, stealing, or hating, rest assure I love it when I am doing it!! Or why do it? I am as evil as evil gets, I can drop down to the lowest, basis, and debauchery forms of inhumane types of behavior without a provocation or hesitation when it strikes me deep in my dark soul to do so............Yes, my soul can be the darkest of all souls and I love being evil, bad, disgusting, and despicable to all the so-called polite society!!~~HAHA!! Yeah, oh yeah!!
Paradox side by side, evil me and good me, I digress........my man is the same too!! I will admit when he's a bad lil boy, he's really bad......You see he is a rebel with many many causes, this character lives large in the in reality of his own mind either way its an extremely intense ride, not for the faint of heart <3 I sadly have to admit, he can be terrifying and enlightening all in the same breath, you do not want to get on his bad side because despite his good, kind, and forgiving nature; there is only so much you can do to him that may not find its way to his sketchy forgiveness, good luck with that one, best not to upset him too much.....safer for you anyway!! My point is he is both beautiful in every way I personally love so much, and just as dark as the darkest of humans can be; he has tried very hard to take the higher road, but you see, he went against his own code of conduct; otherwise, he is indomitable in every sense of the word, not to be lightly trifled with if you know what is healthy for you, smiling like a Cheshire kitty he he!! His crime~~~loving me a Libra female with a Scorpio moon, almost like a Scorpio in intensity and dogmatic determination, but the Libra mellows me out to a more humanistic person with a passionate purpose of will......until I met him I was very content with my mediocrity of passive living. You see when you meet your other half he he he, good or bad or both, you have to take on both halves of the whole, this is usually why twins meet in the first place to merge painfully and blissfully back into the one individual person they were met to be in the first place before sin destroyed our world and tore everything out of perfect harmony, synchronicity, and perfect loving balance.........:o
The tearing is a nature fact of life and every twin will have to endure this critical process...many of us can't handle the heat and we gladly back down from this deepening of the extreme forces of our natures going back and forth and up and down trying to find a way back, unfortunately, despite the fact we look so hard most of our lives consciously or unconsciously for the other half of ourselves when we actually meet our self face to face or in our case, spirit to spirit, which is even scarier because it is really hard to admit this is all a farce with the strength backing it with absolutely no tactile proof of its existence in the first place!! Yes, at first very exhilarating, exciting, and driving hard the two halves, but then through time and space the two realize, "wait a minute, I really love this person, yet I can't really see them, maybe a picture, and I might be able to hear them, but is this really my twin?..........addiction is a good sign your on the right path to your soul mate..........no matter how hard you try, you just can't happily pull yourself completely away and feel normal anywhere you go, no matter how you lie to yourself that your still the same great and wonderful person you once were before having this encounter. I always go back to him, and I am independent, not a truly needy type at all, but meeting him there are times, I am down right naked and extremely vulnerable to him, and he knows it, but he's the same, and he's also used to being in charge, as he is very dynamic person with lots of drive, imagination, and great energy............but he keeps coming back, and I feel at times even as strong as he is as a well accomplished individual, he is trying to fight it or analyze it too!!
Being torn, is normal while you go through this process and not all twins can handle this extreme, maddening, and powerful thrust into going back into another soul because they are still fighting to remain autonomous, but you know in both of your hearts it is just not working out that well because the more you deny it, fight it, and try to ignore it, the more you actually start to lose yourself because you can not meet up with yourself and actually just say, "hey, how's it going and oh by the way see ya later?" Nice strategy but it will not work because you just met yourself and it is like "hey" I am over here, "hello" come and get me!!!! I am not sure of the outcome just yet, he is a patient man, as I am, we are both strong people, determined, and we both like it our way, yet when I am really with him and we are really connecting, then and only then do I know how relaxing, perfect, soothing it is to meet the better half of my true self we are opposites of the same coin, in that he's a major ambitious person has always been, but I have been ambitious, but more relaxed about it as I am more of the nature keeper and he's the world keeper type............but no matter how this works out for us, I do not see us not being together, as forces are already bringing us together, no matter how we both are minimizing this powerful effect this is having on both of us...........more late.....about the world keeper and Ms. nature he he he Kisss, thanks for reading!!!!