I can read every webpage you ever write to, but the question still remains, how deep is your love.............?? I am not the one that keeps waiting.....I stayed up, lost sleep, cried, got torn apart, lost confidence, gain it back again, felt hurt and love both deeply sometimes at the same time forgive, forgave, forgiven over and over, when no one in there human right mind would take that from anyone they have never met, how's that for loving until it hurts, believing until you don't know what u believe, and trusting beyond human measure on something u were never sure was really there, and then having 1000s of different men toss themselves at me never knowing if they were u but always looking to find u never giving up, but now I know and u still act like I need to keep doing this for the next 20 yrs when both of us will be too old to appreciate the lil time we both have to share it together....No the question should be sent back to the giver, who is to afraid to show his face on skype when I took many chances always hoping for you, waiting to talk to you, and each time it was with great disappointment and always always someone other than the real you........I know who you are now, so this is all in vain really.....U r too smart for your own good.......being intelligent is a gift from God, but the devil loves to come along and complicate everything and keep us from the person we should be with....yes you know I am not perfect and believe me I have proof that you are not either, so why all of this.....to be continued stuff everytime I step out of line, you run for cover, yet why do I run to you when u have hurt me deeply and on purpose many times, me I hurt in response to something I was not sure about because I have had some bad experiences and think they are happening again.........but instead of understanding this u internalize it and think it is deliberately aimed at u when it is not.........at those times I am not sure about anything anymore....so yes, you may seem like the victim but you are not...........then I realize it is you again.....and feel horrible for not understanding u r trusting u..........so sorry for not being perfect.........but I don't love you because you are perfect, I love you because I will never find anyone else who can move me in so many ways......that only someone who is almost absolutely like me can do..........my other half.......u know me better than just what u have learned u know me in ways that u just know and none of this spying has helped u with, but I know you in ways that I have had not the experience or equipment to know you.......so yes I am just guessing......but I see u in what u do.......I don't get to see u when ur mad, sad, upset, I have to guess based off of your responses where u have the advantage over me an get to see me warts and all an if you do not like what u have seen without my permission then that 's what u get for spying on me without my permission and i don't do anything because I do not want others to know about this so I have literally imprisoned myself to u and at first not happy but later when I knew I loved u then it no longer felt like prison, but now u r teaching me........u know...........and maybe to u ur helping but u have invaded every area of my life without my permission and i am not happy about it even if ur a good teacher because u took it upon yourself to think u knew what was best for me without asking me which is a lack of respect an u think somehow u are better than me because u think u have accomplished more and are smarter and more talented and more influential etc but and this may be true on a human realm, but to God your just a man and you have no more value than I in his eyes, but as a man you think because I am a woman you are some how better but you're not but I am not better than u.........I am happy about your many accomplishments, but that still does not make you superior over me, just you utilized your time better, but I am still happy with my life because.....I had to meditate over and over again, without human interference and God allowed and made provisions for this so if he did not want me to do this he would have stopped me, but he knew I had to heal even if it took many years. I am happy whether you think so or not. I might be considered simple compared to you but I am still happy, and I am me because of everything. I can live with it and I did finish and do well in school, so you see I am happy with what I have done with my life even if it does not live up to your expectations of me as an accomplished person...........not everyone can be the same.......or there would be no superheroes if we are all super heros......But at the end of the day I am very happy and content with life, the only thing I wanted in my life was you, and that is because I could be even happier knowing your not going to be easy to please, knowing that you are demanding and challenging, judgemental, and a hard person at times, but I know you mean well or else I would not want to be with you.........but maybe my easy ways may run off on you and you won't be such a slave driver and perfectionist all of the time expecting flawlessness from all of those around you, guess what the mistakes can sometimes be our very best work because they were not planned for, it just happened and sometimes that is God's way of saying hey, you know what this is better oooopppsss~~~!! and yes God has a great sense of humor.......man on the other hand goes by deadlines, quotas, time frames, and other things that cause pressure and stress and it is going to come out looking the same as God wants it to anyway.......God is the final judge on all things.........and he works mysterious and he loves confounding the wise, so when you think I am not enough for you, how do you know that God does not think you are not enough for me??? There how deep is your love by the bee gees.........for me.....u hide like a scared lil school boy.........ur fear of rejection is beyond me, I decide if you're the one, not you, and if you're too afraid to find out then maybe you should not have wasted all of your time on all of these nice websites, very romantic, but not practical if it does not get you the object of your affections you were trying for, your an Aries your not suppose to be afraid of a woman??? So h has how deep is my love did I miss anything is this not perfect or were you expecting me not too be this honest, I only know honest and many do not like a woman doing it but I am true to myself and I am true to you, I do not want other men, just you...........only you.....only you ever the only one for me........how much more proof do you need??? I love you baby, and only you okay so you need to stop being afraid.........I am not going to hurt you, leave you, nor forsake you, just give me a chance and you will see I want to be with you the rest of our lives.............Period!!!! Nice, sweet, rad, cool, and everything in between..........I am yours if you want me??? Still waiting???