I get quick ideas that come from nowhere, and so many go somewhere, but I thought why not share?? This is how I feel about when we fall in love, not all of us get this, but some of us do..............sometimes it creeps up on you like a good joint full of surprises....creeper weed...and then bling bam bam!! it's there u don't know how it happened it just did, and then u try to shake it off like a dog or cat with too much water after a bath or jumping into a pool, we are kind of like that and its cool... u think shaking will get rid of it and then u discover .....it just makes it stronger the harder you try to shake it off.....it does not leave only stays and grows every day until the pressure gets too intense so u become defensive, deny, lie, try, and it still will not leave u......stays......drives you crazy, makes u weak and vulnerable, makes you say and do stupid things because somehow if you try hard enough you will overcome this emotion that has you pinned up in your own emotions, the seasons pass but it is still emotion, going deep deep like the ocean.........no escape no matter how you try only your love can free you from this enormous storm inside......if they do not want a ride, but not for fun and not a joy ride, you still keep on trying but every day you're just dying inside with no escape, no matter who you lie to, yourself or others you know you're lying and so does everyone else, you can't hide, you can't run, you can't enjoy life anymore, it's not fun, and if you do not tell this person it may be too late, but sometimes by then they feel it too, but some of them or stronger and they can outsmart you, who's the fool?? No winners, just losers, just take a pill, smoke a joint, get drunk every day, maybe someday your heart will heal, but until then, it just feels!!!!! Too much intensity, too much pain, no shine shine only rain, give me a break this is all too insane!! Love is not a quickie, it does not just go away, and sometime it just stays and stays!! What happens when it stays??
If the person you love, loves you back then by then if you're not dead by way of heart attack, then love comes and penetrates your crack that lil place you made when you felt it the day you knew it existed in your heart.....my God that would feel so good to know they cared, this fairy tale was real, now with this new love all's you can do is feel.......do you feel it growing deep inside taking away the storm clouds, the goblins, the dark spirits of yesterday, those ones that took away your happy days!! I like this new ride in my life taking away the pain, strife, and who knows what else that was moving upon on us in our blind spot of life, we seem to have too many dark spirits taking over, never knowing the real spooks until October........a scary but beautiful month to grow older.......when they ask what is your age, I say none of your biz, now it's all a haze. I love myself so why all the pain, even in October I have no shame........do you love me baby or am I just your check you sign every month.......why I play center stage?? I notice your fancy car, house, and fame.......why all the lies, where is my champagne??? When they love you they will not leave, for their investment is with your heart, but mostly their heart....we are selfish creatures you know, we just don't go around people to let it show, but the bottom line is it so real the way this love can make me feel......alive with joy so high into the clouds, why he shouts out loud and pays the crowds!! Love is just a number on a line in a check book, one look, one love is all it took, but now with the new book, I am just a hook, with numbers added does that make someone a crook?? I really hope his book sells well, but what is left of me, no one can tell?? I no love is no lie but am I the only one who bleeds with it inside? I guess I will give this love another try..........if you love someone tell them, for even if they do not feel the same, there is no shame, only pain, but the pain of not knowing is twice as sad, now aren't you glad?? Love is the blame, but it is not the shame when they cash in on your fame!! Peace, love, and not war.....the human race is worth so much more.....Love!!